A reminder to all sexual assault survivors and victims that you shouldn’t feel pressured to feel any certain way about your assault. If it devastated you, you have that right. If you don’t feel impacted by it, you have that right. It isn’t up to anybody else to decide how you ought to feel.
That is definitely sexual abuse, and I’m so sorry you were taken advantage of. I hope she’s not still teaching, that would be terrifying.
More important for now, I hope you haven’t suffered too many long term effects because of it. If you need to talk, you can always write to us.
If your partner can’t respond to no consent for sexual intimacy without neglecting you and punishing you with guilt and you often find consenting for future intimacy to avoid feeling like YOU ARE the one neglecting them…
Then your partner is coercive and emotionally manipulates you into having sex and THAT IS RAPE.